Where are my posts....

....must be lost in cyberspace. I hadn't been on here in about a month and I just realized that my August posts are gone.

As of today I weighed in at 239.4. The scales are still coming down but very slowly. It seems like the last month I have been playing with the same 3-4 pounds. I have been frustrated with life and kind of down in the dumps especially since the scale isn't moving much, so I haven't been posting. I think that is part of my problem with the scale not moving and since it is veggie season here in Oregon I started eating veggies every day. I figured lean meat and veggies I will still lose a lot a weight. Well, I was wrong. I am starting back today to PP days and PV days instead of all PV days. I have also started T-Tapping again. I have actually done it three times this week. My other problem is that I am slacking in drinking water. I am anxiously awaiting my newest order of Capella drops to put in my water. I am going to try some Flavet ones this time. I will let you know.

I am so excited, someone finally noticed that I have lost weight! It took over 45 pounds to be lost - but they noticed. My friend came over last night for a BBQ and when we were alone she said that she noticed that I had lost a lot of weight. I told her thanks for noticing. This make us for all the frustrations I have had on this journey lately. She made my day!

After this, I am going to be brave and post a few photos (I don't know how long I will leave them up). The first is me at the start and then second is when I had lost 25% of what I want to lose. I have since then lost an additional 8 pounds. I still look at my before picture (and even current one) and am so appalled at what I let myself become.

No more dairy - what am I going to do?!?!?

I finally went to a naturopath to try and get better. It seems to be helping. He took me off of dairy today though! I spent the day having a big pity party for myself, and bawled all morning. Why does food or not being able to have food have such an affect on me? Why is it so important to me that I would actually cry? When I was driving home I was so tempted to pull into every fast food place I passed. I figured why not, I am a lost cause now. But then I prayed for strength and kept going. It has been a hard day. I have been wondering how I am going to stay on this diet and not have dairy. I already can't have eggs. That means only meat on protein only days. I don't think that will work. What am I to do?!?!

Post edited: Later t0day as I was bawling to my daughter that I couldn't have dairy now, she suggested that I try eating veggies every day with my protein and see if it will work. I am so glad I raised such a smart girl! I am going to give it a try and see what happens.

Week 13

The steroids must have left my body because the scale is going back down. I am now at 258. Still coughing though.

Week 12

I don't like these steroids. I am up 4 pounds and weigh 262.3. It is so frustrating to work so hard at something to have it waylaid because you had a reaction to a shot you didn't need. I am still feeling horrible and only get a few hours sleep at night due to coughing.

Pertussis and steroids

I went to the doctor for a physical and got a DPT shot and had an allergic reaction. Needless to say the shot that was supposed to help me be healthy has made me dreadfully sick. I have pertussis (whooping cough). The doctor put me on steroids to help me get over it. I tried to talk her out of it because I heard that it will make you gain weight. We will see.

Week 11

A little more of a loss this week. I am now at 258.6.