I cheated - on purpose!

I had an apple a couple days ago! :o I have been losing really slowly. It seems like the last few months I keep playing with the same few pounds going up and down. I researched how to break stalls and a lot of the suggestions were to go off diet for a day. I was too scared to do that so I had an apple. I have been wanting fruit since I started this diet. I thought about it for several hours before I was brave enough (I have a fear if I deviate from the diet that I will totally lose control). I sliced it into thin slices and took a bite. My thought was, "yep, that's what an apple tastes like, it's sweet and juicy". "hmm, it's just an apple". I was totally surprised that I wasn't excited about it or anything, it was no different than eating a piece of meat or zucchini. I think this diet has actually changed my thoughts about food! Praise the Lord!!! I think I am getting healed from this addiction to food.

Week 25

Wow, it's hard to believe how long I have been on this diet and been able to stick to it. Today when I weighed I was at 234.1. Things are still coming off slow. But, I guess that slow is better than not at all, or even gaining. It doesn't look as if I will meet my goal of halfway by my birthday. I am going to try and do more on the elliptical so there is still a chance.

The elliptical whooped me!

Wow! I am so out of shape! I could only (or was only willing) to do 10 minutes on that thing. I had sweat pouring off of me like I had never had. I have gotten on it 4 times since I got it for 10 minutes each time. I am hoping to up my time next week. It works though! I got on the scales and was back down to 234. I ordered the Jillian Michaels Lose Weight workout to use with it. I am sure it will be hard for me even though it's only level 1. I hope it arrives soon.

What happened?!?!?

Okay, I got on the scale this morning and it said 242. What happened?!?!? I did several all protein days and didn't deviate from the diet, and even exercised some. Six pounds gained - something is not right. This weekend I had sucralose and didn't drink my water could that have caused it? I could see several pounds - but not six! I am getting really frustrated with this ol' body.

On the upside of things, I was able to find an elliptical on craigslist this weekend. I used it this morning and it whooped me! I was only able to stay on it 10 minutes and at that point I had sweat pouring off of me. I am hoping this is what I need to get the weight coming off again.

PP days are what it takes

I got on the scales today and I was at 235.1. I guess I needed to do things the way I should do them and not the way I wanted to do them! That's 4 pounds for this week! I am so thankful that the scales are moving in the right direction again. I need to lose 10 more pounds to be at the halfway point. I would love to be there for my birthday which is on the 28th. I think at this point I should be able to reach that goal.

Things are probably going to get more hectic with my life. I have been asked to do my caregiver job 5 days a week instead of just 3. I am already stressed with the 3 but after praying about it, I feel that God put us on earth to be servants to one another and right now He is asking me to serve them. My family has said that they will help out at home more so hopefully it will work. I spent the weekend spring cleaning so things would be easier to keep up on. I only have a few more rooms to go. It sure feels good to have everything clean and in it's place.

Where are my posts....

....must be lost in cyberspace. I hadn't been on here in about a month and I just realized that my August posts are gone.

As of today I weighed in at 239.4. The scales are still coming down but very slowly. It seems like the last month I have been playing with the same 3-4 pounds. I have been frustrated with life and kind of down in the dumps especially since the scale isn't moving much, so I haven't been posting. I think that is part of my problem with the scale not moving and since it is veggie season here in Oregon I started eating veggies every day. I figured lean meat and veggies I will still lose a lot a weight. Well, I was wrong. I am starting back today to PP days and PV days instead of all PV days. I have also started T-Tapping again. I have actually done it three times this week. My other problem is that I am slacking in drinking water. I am anxiously awaiting my newest order of Capella drops to put in my water. I am going to try some Flavet ones this time. I will let you know.

I am so excited, someone finally noticed that I have lost weight! It took over 45 pounds to be lost - but they noticed. My friend came over last night for a BBQ and when we were alone she said that she noticed that I had lost a lot of weight. I told her thanks for noticing. This make us for all the frustrations I have had on this journey lately. She made my day!

After this, I am going to be brave and post a few photos (I don't know how long I will leave them up). The first is me at the start and then second is when I had lost 25% of what I want to lose. I have since then lost an additional 8 pounds. I still look at my before picture (and even current one) and am so appalled at what I let myself become.